Her Heart's Thoughts

Loving this Man has been the hardest thing in my life.  I've  fallen out of love with Him so many times, for stupid reasons. Our relationship has had its share of problems.   I’d tried to figure out what love is all about while loving Him but never got the formula right. I’ll stay up all night writing down reasons as to why I should keep loving Him. Most of the times we kept reading from different scripts, I wanted Him to read from mine yet He kept handing me His. Understanding love is something that takes years but the stubborn me wanted to understand it at that particular moment. I needed to get the love formula right and He was the answer. My heart had chosen Him and no matter how many times I tried fighting it, the love was here to stay and it was time I embraced it. I made the choice of loving Him when I hit rock bottom and there was no one by my side. He stretched His hand and lifted me up, dusted me and promised He won’t leave my sight. I know it soun...

Happiness is a feeling that we all thrive to achieve in life. It's thoughts of the good life, freedom from suffering, flourishing, well-being, joy, prosperity and pleasure. It’s a 9 letter word, which has brought tears and pain to all of us, while trying to experience or achieve it. I've become a victim not once or twice. I relied on the people around me to achieve my happiness and every time I didn't, I turned back and blamed them. Every time I stood at the balcony in the wee hours of the night wondering why did happiness slip through my fingers once again, I always swore on these words 'Happiness is A Choice' From that moment onwards I'll always live on those words like bread and water.                    I got tired of standing at the balcony, crying myself to sleep and relying on people who at the end of the day would let me down. In that process trying to figure out what...

The place hadn't changed much, the surronding was still the same but many people had definitely moved in since she was last here. It was peaceful just as she remembered it. She was overwhelmed by emotions because being at this place reminded her of the life she could have had. The faces that passed her weren't familiar, the place she held dearly in her palm was fading away as she looked at it. Down on the ground, tears flowing down her cheeks asking herself why. lt  took her years to overcome her fears and finally as she did, they wanted to take everything away. Excuse me miss" The voice sounded familiar. She hurriedly looked up, "You dropped your album" It was the watchman he hadn't changed much. Old age was treating him well. "My daughter" He said. It reminded her of those days he'll always found her sitted by herself looking worried but still managed to make her smile. He was the reason behind those amazing smiles. "What's the ...

For several years I have been battling with this word called 'Patience'. I have been on a journey that has really tested my patience to a point that I got myself questioning God. Some of us are familiar with such situations. In several situations I got myself questioning God and getting into a heated argument with Him, stamping my feet with anger just the way a young one will do when a parent has denied them something they really wanted at that particular time. That was me, telling God that I want this now and not tomorrow. I couldn't understand why he couldn't just give me what I wanted, while He knew very well that I really needed it. I would pray, attend church faithfully every Sunday so that he could see I'm being a good child then He would reward me. But no He never succumbed into the pressure. Patience is not my favorite word in my dictionary and He was aware of that. However He still placed 'Patience' ahead of me knowing very well that it's th...

She slapped the car door behind her and walked away without turning back, minutes later she get's a text  from him that it's over. Little did he know that the relationship they "supposedly" shared never existed in her life. The night before, she laid in his bed and slept by his side, nothing happened because they were supposedly doing the "90 day rule" sadly didn't he know, she was banging someone else. He loved her but she didn't, it's not that he wasn't great, it's the way he approached her from the beginning. He got it all wrong, money to her was never a priority and him flashing it on her face was the biggest mistake. I know you're getting a bit confused because men have this theory that when you show her your wallet, she'll follow you, not all ladies are like that. She wanted to teach him a lesson and the class had just taken a break, the final class was yet to begin. She did the unthinkable, approached him and lied that ...

He sat there quietly staring into the crowd but from the look on his face he was not paying attention to anything that was going on around him. His body was there but not his mind, spirit or soul, I looked at him and a tear fell from my eye, his hand stretched immediately to catch it. While he was wiping the tear he uttered these words "I'll be ok, don't worry about me, it's time for me to let go" Those words pierced my heart I stood up and went to the loo to cry out my anger and pain. Letting go was not an option after this far we've come together, the struggles we've gone through. I wanted him to keep fighting and not to let go because there was hope, no matter how tiny it was, it was still hope. I looked into the mirror and stared, it was evident that it was time for me to also let go. The white flag had been raised meaning the end of the journey. He fell in love with her the moment he set his eye on her it was love at f...