Patience Pays
For several years I have been battling with this word called 'Patience'. I have been on a journey that has really tested my patience to a point that I got myself questioning God. Some of us are familiar with such situations. In several situations I got myself questioning God and getting into a heated argument with Him, stamping my feet with anger just the way a young one will do when a parent has denied them something they really wanted at that particular time.
That was me, telling God that I want this now and not tomorrow. I couldn't understand why he couldn't just give me what I wanted, while He knew very well that I really needed it. I would pray, attend church faithfully every Sunday so that he could see I'm being a good child then He would reward me. But no He never succumbed into the pressure. Patience is not my favorite word in my dictionary and He was aware of that.
However He still placed 'Patience' ahead of me knowing very well that it's the most difficult thing for me. My very good friend can testify that I hate the word 'Patience' to the point she gave me a tip I should use every time I get tempted with it, I count starting from 100 backwards. It's not as easy as it is and as I write this, I have used that theory twice already in the first 5 hours since I woke up.
As the day progressed I got the best news. When all this information was being relayed to me, I got so overwhelmed that I sat down and took a moment of silence. It took several years for me to hear those words. I flash backed on the sleepless nights, the tears that I wept quietly under my bedsheets, the arguments with God, the several times I walked into God's church just to hear if the pastor will pass a message that is just meant for me.
It took God all those years just to respond to my cry. As I write this and look back on all those moments God took me through, He did it for a reason. I don't think at that moment I deserved what I really wanted. If I got whatever I wanted so badly back then, I don't think I would have been the person I am right now.
I'm now at the right place in my life for what God has given me. This journey has been among the hardest have taken but I survived and came out a champion. Now the word 'Patience' is my new favorite word in the dictionary. God has shown me that His Timing is The Best and no matter how badly we would want something, He'll give it to you when He feels its the right moment for you.
So my dear readers if you've been praying and wanting something so badly and wondering why God isn't giving it to you yet, it's not yet the right time. Just be patient and wait upon Him because He knows when it's the right time for it to come.
Thank you God!!!!!
That was me, telling God that I want this now and not tomorrow. I couldn't understand why he couldn't just give me what I wanted, while He knew very well that I really needed it. I would pray, attend church faithfully every Sunday so that he could see I'm being a good child then He would reward me. But no He never succumbed into the pressure. Patience is not my favorite word in my dictionary and He was aware of that.
However He still placed 'Patience' ahead of me knowing very well that it's the most difficult thing for me. My very good friend can testify that I hate the word 'Patience' to the point she gave me a tip I should use every time I get tempted with it, I count starting from 100 backwards. It's not as easy as it is and as I write this, I have used that theory twice already in the first 5 hours since I woke up.
As the day progressed I got the best news. When all this information was being relayed to me, I got so overwhelmed that I sat down and took a moment of silence. It took several years for me to hear those words. I flash backed on the sleepless nights, the tears that I wept quietly under my bedsheets, the arguments with God, the several times I walked into God's church just to hear if the pastor will pass a message that is just meant for me.
It took God all those years just to respond to my cry. As I write this and look back on all those moments God took me through, He did it for a reason. I don't think at that moment I deserved what I really wanted. If I got whatever I wanted so badly back then, I don't think I would have been the person I am right now.
I'm now at the right place in my life for what God has given me. This journey has been among the hardest have taken but I survived and came out a champion. Now the word 'Patience' is my new favorite word in the dictionary. God has shown me that His Timing is The Best and no matter how badly we would want something, He'll give it to you when He feels its the right moment for you.
So my dear readers if you've been praying and wanting something so badly and wondering why God isn't giving it to you yet, it's not yet the right time. Just be patient and wait upon Him because He knows when it's the right time for it to come.
Thank you God!!!!!
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