I'm Loving One Man

Loving this Man has been the hardest thing in my life. I've fallen out of love with Him so many times, for stupid reasons. Our relationship has had its share of problems.  
I’d tried to figure out what love is all about while loving Him but never got the formula right. I’ll stay up all night writing down reasons as to why I should keep loving Him. Most of the times we kept reading from different scripts, I wanted Him to read from mine yet He kept handing me His.

Understanding love is something that takes years but the stubborn me wanted to understand it at that particular moment. I needed to get the love formula right and He was the answer. My heart had chosen Him and no matter how many times I tried fighting it, the love was here to stay and it was time I embraced it.

I made the choice of loving Him when I hit rock bottom and there was no one by my side. He stretched His hand and lifted me up, dusted me and promised He won’t leave my sight. I know it sounds selfish that I made the choice of loving Him at that particular moment but let’s admit it, some of us make that choice when that person you love or loves you never walks away when we hit rock bottom.  

He kept his promise. When I wanted a shoulder to lean and cry on, He was right there. When I wanted the whispering of encouraging words in my ear, He was right there to whisper them. He was there every second, minute, hour, day and night. Who can truly resist such a Man?

JOHN 3:16 “FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD, THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON, THAT WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH BUT HAVE ETERNAL LIFE.

In everything we've gone through, the ups and downs in our relationship, the tears and the good moments shared together. I made a vow to myself to loving the Lord. When I made this vow, I knew the ride wouldn't be easy but I’m ready to love Him no matter what. There moments I’ll feel like jumping off the ship but I’ll stay put because loving Him is the best thing I can do for myself. There’s nothing special about me and yet he chose to love me faithful.

It’s been a year since I made the decision to commit fully to the Lord. The walk hasn't been easy but I’m learning to take it step by step. Each day that passes by I’m learning more about my relationship with Him. I can proudly say this is the best relationship have ever had. No matter the type of person I am in this relationship, He always has His arms wide open to welcome me. He’s my Father and I’m His Daughter.



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