Fare Thee Well

I’m not very good with handling death. It really affects me so much. I've lost a friend Grace. Her death is so sudden that have been unable to weep. It’s so sudden that I don’t know how to deal with it. All I can do is just sit and reflect on the laughter and talks we shared together.

I didn’t know Grace for long but for the several months I got to know her, we had a connection. She’s the type of person, who makes you feel at home when you’re around her. She was motherly and had an amazing smile.

I take time to connect with people but with her it was different. I connected with her in no time. Grace was pregnant & the little one liked me. It kicked one day when I touched her belly, it felt good. She was looking forward to having this baby. I even predicted and told her it will be a baby girl!!!

Everything happens for a reason, that’s what I hear when tragic happens in people’s lives. I would like to believe in this phrase but it’s really hard. From where I’m standing, I’m looking for the reason and I can’t find it. Instead I have so many questions I want to ask and get answers too.

Lord it was too soon... Why did she have to get complications while delivering the baby??? Why couldn’t you give her the chance to enjoy motherhood??? Why did you have to take her away from her family this soon??? What next for her husband and her boys??? Why Lord Why??? What is her husband meant to tell her boys??? Mummy is not coming home anymore??? How do you make these boys understand that everything happens for a reason???

I know it’s absurd to ask God questions but I just want to understand... Only God may know Why??? I also want to know Why??? God, why didn't you give me a chance to say bye to Grace L getting the phone call on my way to hospital was very heartbreaking. It was just two hours since I received the phone call that she was in hospital, Why didn't you give me the opportunity to say bye to Grace, as I had missed telling Doris bye.

Hope someday everything will make sense.

Grace, you’ll truly be missed. The time you shared with us at the online department was amazing and that is what will keep us going. The memories will always be treasured. You’re journey here on earth has comes to an end. Even if getting through this time will be difficult, you’re smile will keep us going. As you start the other journey, you’ll be in our hearts and never will be forgotten. Just the way you were a great person here in earth, you’ll be a great angel in heaven. 

Grace this is no goodbye but I’ll see you later. L L Rest in Peace Grace. You will always be loved and missed.