My Flower

The white rose flower departed from my hand and into the stream. For a moment, the sound of the water crashing against the rocks and the birds chirping away faded, my eyes unblinking, unwilling to let go of the sight of my flower, floating effortlessly, weightless against the current of the clear water.

My flower fighting the current even as the current proved too strong for its feeble petals. My flower unwilling to disintegrate into nothing. It had blossomed, it was beautiful, it had a right to life.  It wasn’t ready to give up yet because this was a fight worth fighting for. The water current however forced the petals to wither away and it had to surrender. It didn’t surrender because the fight was hard, it surrendered mainly because it was time for it to let go and see what the future had in store for it.

Most of us find ourselves in such situations where you're fighting or holding on to something so dearly because your scared of what is ahead of you.  I have in different situations; jobs,friendship, business deals, however  the one thing I have learnt from all this is that what lies ahead is usually something so amazing that when you get it, you  wonder why you were holding on to something that pales in comparison. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying don't fight for what you believe in with all you've got. I'm just saying when you're fighting that battle ask yourself if you will like the outcome. You've witnessed that in war zone countries. After the post election violence in our country, there was so much to rebuild as a nation and as individuals. When you are in that battlefield just ask yourself this question; Will I like the outcome? 

From where I'm standing that's the same question I'm asking myself. I fought a battle with my heart; Was it worth it? Was it a war that deserved my tears and pain? Did I like the outcome? 

The fight was worth it and the outcome was good because I ended up getting the man I love back. Was it a war that deserved my tears and pain? The answer is No.

I don't think what I went through during that battle was worth it at all and the aftermath. I know you're getting confused now because I won the battle by getting him back. But as I said earlier, sometimes we hold on to things dearly because we are scared of what's ahead of us. 

We are scared of letting go of that rope because you're not sure if you'll have someone to catch you when you fall. I want to tell you that if you are holding on to that rope, scared of the outcome, of what the future ahead of you looks like,you need to let it go. Let it go because you'll have someone catch you. It could be your family, best friend or a stranger. Fact is that there will be someone to catch you. 

My white rose flower that symbolizes true love, has bid farewell in the outcome of a strong water current, however, this is also the sign of a new beginning.  I will always remember my flower because it made me an amazing person, it opened  me up to feelings I did not know I could have. It opened me to a whole new world of possibilities, in emotions, in true feelings. It taught me Love. 

Love is an amazing feeling that sometimes words find inadequate to describe. I am  glad it taught me that because now I know what Love is. Love, aside from life,  is the greatest gift human beings were given by God.