Taking Charge of My Health

I want to touch on a sensitive topic and I'm not doing it because I want to piss anyone off, but I'm doing it because I want to share the irony about it.

'Weight' is such a sensitive topic amongst women. Everywhere we go, you'll find a woman who's having issues   with her weight and most of the time that woman wants to lose it. The irony about this is that I'm the opposite of it. I'm that girl who wants to gain weight and feels so bad every time I lose a Kg. I'm sensing the attitude. Yes, I'm the opposite. 

Honestly it's not everyday that someone wants to gain weight but when I stepped on that weighing scale and it read 52kgs, my mouth gasped open. I couldn't believe it. I recalled several times telling Mr that I'm losing weight and he'll always tell me you look fine and I'll tell myself my clothes still fit me. But the weighing scale was the moment of truth for me. 

Currently I'm weighing 52kgs. I'm not happy about it because in September, I weighed 54kgs. I have lost 2kgs. I blame all this to my poor eating. Yes, poor eating. Over the weekend Mr took me to a 'Nutritionist' and it was not the best experience ever. We were both given a lecture. He was told how his meant to make sure I eat and I was told to gain that weight for my own good health. I pledged to do it, for myself, him and my future. I'm not good at being lectured but its the only way one can put sense into my thick skull. 

While I was there, I met a woman she was heavy. She didn't understand why I wanted to gain weight. She was literally begging me not to gain weight. But I told her, its for my own good. I want to be health and if gaining weight is part of it, I'm willing to do it. 

My journey of gaining weight began the moment I stepped out of that place. I'm meant to weigh 60kgs the next time I'm paying the nutritionist a visit. I want to do it in 2months. I know that's being ambitious but I want to do it. I'm giving it my all :) 

Don't think I'm doing it because I want to please someone. No! I'm doing it for myself. I want to be more happy with the way I look and the way I feel. My happiness and health is what's more important. 

The journey begins!